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[August 24th, 2006 | 18.12] |
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Hey, I moved.
add me if you havent already.
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[August 15th, 2006 | 15.51] |
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Black Eyed Peas |
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Out with the old, in with the new.
hope_xo
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[August 14th, 2006 | 12.33] |
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she left today.
and i didnt get a chance to say goodbye.
thats cool...
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| :):) |
[June 4th, 2006 | 09.50] |
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Brand New |
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Beach week until sunday :) ♥!
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[April 27th, 2006 | 15.12] |
Oh NO! Look at me writing about my feelings in my OWN FUCKING JOURNAL.
You know what I am doing a massive friend cut and this is now friends only.
kthanks.
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| fuck you kthanks :) |
[April 25th, 2006 | 22.52] |
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 you're a dumb loose slut :) |
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The Rocket Summer |
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I enjoy friends that are two faced assholes.
It makes me all warm inside.
Really I fucking love it.
<33333
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| home. |
[April 24th, 2006 | 02.59] |
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Frou Frou |
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...i'm home :(
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| Vacation. |
[April 19th, 2006 | 11.27] |
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Anberlin |
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I am leaving tonight for Virginia Beach and I am super pumped.
You should leave me love and tell me how much you miss me.
I will be back sunday night.
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| i wont fall for it this time |
[April 15th, 2006 | 23.04] |
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The Academy Is... |
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These types of things make me wonder what the hell am I doing wiht my life.
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| April vaca night 1 |
[April 14th, 2006 | 12.40] |
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Cartel |
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last night had potention to be both good and bad.
Just so happens it ended up being amazing.
even though we got stuck hidign in the woods for 3 hours I couldnt have choosen anyone better to be stuck there with.
&& Betsy didnt get towed :)
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[April 11th, 2006 | 22.48] |
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So the past few days have been far from the best.
I've lost a friend
Yet held on to another.
I've basically started a relationship over that I thought was completely lost.
I'm losing an aunt, a father, a brother...my friends.
I find myself stuck in this hole of selfpity not knowing what else I have in life.
Or why I am meant to be here.
The second guessing never seems to find an end
and my gray area's have seemed to disappear, and I can't even fathom as to why.
I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense..
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.
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| it's a lie. |
[April 7th, 2006 | 14.14] |
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So it's safe to say that this was THE worst week ever.
Nothing seemed to be going right.
I was fighting with basically everyone for no reason.
Everything got me upset.
&& I learned that you were NEVER the best friend I thought you were.
&& I know that YOU will show this to her and talk more shit but whatever.
You two are very irrelavant now, so I could careless.
I can't wait for Spring Break, for the simple fact that I am getting the hell out of here.
I need a break from my life.
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| war. |
[April 5th, 2006 | 22.09] |
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Thursday |
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I wish I could name something going right.
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[April 3rd, 2006 | 15.31] |
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The Academy is... |
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Sometimes things just hit me like a ton of brick.
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| grrr...baltimore. |
[March 30th, 2006 | 18.42] |
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Saves the Day |
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Things learned today:
Matthew lee is terrified of Lady bugs when they are near his face.
Baltimore is Ghetto.
Hotels in Baltimore have norweign water for four buck a pop.
I hate working 3-6.
My mom's immature
It's only day one and I kinda miss this boy a lot. :(
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[March 29th, 2006 | 22.11] |
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I HATE BALTIMORE!
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[March 28th, 2006 | 21.04] |
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So we spilt in "half"
I am part of the minority and must say that I am enjoying it.
There is no sense of inferiority, everything is flowing smoothly and starting to progress.
I do not however enjoy the fact that you are making us complete outcast from the class. "we're all friends" you say, but you have yet to speak to us since the spilt. You stay to your side and we stay to ours. Occasional glances are passed and don't think we don't see them.
This is ridiculous, segregation is not what we wanted.
If only the maturity level of our class were better.
But I guess it's your way or the highway.
I like my group and you can choose to be immature and think you are so superior to us or you can continue on like things were before.
But either way, you aren't going to end my senior year on a bad note.
The End.
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| <333 |
[March 26th, 2006 | 10.30] |
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We are Lions |
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I love shopping dates with nicki pee.
I love family dinners with nicki pee.
I love nights at daniel with a handful of my close friends.
I love sleeping with nicki pee.
I love when my dad wins a thousand dollars on a scratch ticket and takes me shopping.
I love when its the 26th. <333
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[March 23rd, 2006 | 21.44] |
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Frou Frou |
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SO remember the entry about how my assisant manager gave me a reality slap?
Yeah well now I want to slap him.
the end.
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[March 20th, 2006 | 22.06] |
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Life has a funny way of slapping you in the face.
My slap was almost a literal one. And came from Tim.
Awkward I know, who get's a slap in the face from their assistant manager?
I do, he is the only reason I enjoy going to work. He's a 22 year old gangsta but the conversations we carry on make it seem like he can see inside my mind.
It's crazy, scary, and amazing all at the same time.
He makes me realize things that I have been so oblivious to before. And yes, it does make me feel like a moron for overlooking it, but it also brings a state of calm to my chaotic mind.
Oddly enough, the closer I get to leaving Market Basket, the more I think I will miss days like today.
Maybe I won't quit completely, Maybe I will still work Monday's and Thursday's so I get my daily dose of reality from Timothy.
I can't really complain about my life, everything is going good. Yet there is always a need for things to be better, better in a sense that perfection isn't good enough.
My friends are amazing, my boyfriend is sweet, my family is actually getting along, I am going to virginia beach in three weeks, I graduate in 42 days, I think after graduation my family is moving to either maine or canada..I actually am not against it, I feel as if I have out grown fitchburg and all of its aspects, Sean is getting better him and arianna are spending the night on friday, no life altering mistakes have happened, my best friend maybe moving in for a day or two, brandon's depression is actually getting better, my family is getting along (i know i said it already, i just can't believe it) Things are looking up.
Yet why am I so miserable?
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